Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles - Chase My Thoughts Away.

[allira-dream.livejournal.com]

Title: Chase My Thoughts Away.
Fandom: Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles.
Warnings: Spoilers for Shura-country.
Characters/couples: Yasha-Ou/Ashura
Summary: It's not Yasha-Ou. Ashura is aware of this.
Rating: R.

Chase My Thoughts Away.
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right
"Goodbye to You", Michelle Branch

It's not Yasha-Ou. Ashura knows this even as he kisses the shadow's lips and the unscarred eyelid. It's not Yasha-Ou: it barely has a whisper of his spirit, of the strength that made it worth it all the soldiers this war cost. His hands are rough like Yasha-Ou's hands must have been, but still Ashura can't think of them like belonging to the other king, even as those hands pull at his clothes, taking off his sash and then dragging rough palms over his skin.

Ashura wonders why he feels as if he was cheating Yasha-Ou's memory when it's his ghost the one he's doing this with. Perhaps it is because this never happened with Yasha-Ou when he was alive.

He chokes on a sob and instead he bites at the illusion's throat, tries to make himself believe that there is a heartbeat as he touches the illusion's chest, as he lets his own hair cover them both.

The illusion is hard underneath him and the tears sting in his eyes but Ashura doesn't allow himself the relief of tears. Instead he kisses this memory of Yasha-Ou as he moves against him and he gasps his name, holds unto strong shoulders.

The illusion's eyes are dark and tender and they don't close at all. Yasha-Ou used to look at him that exact same way when they fough, serious and focused on him and when they fought there was nothing and no-one else that mattered as much.

Ashura can't stand the tender sorrow those eyes bring him and as shudders starts to wreck his body, he closes his eyes.

Comments

[buddha-loves-me.livejournal.com]

Oh God, it's so rare to find Yasha/Ashura fic, much less for TRC. And you did such a beautiful job with this. It was short and sweet, yet still managing to make it powerful with minimal amounts of words. Last line made me shiver. ;~;

Good job!

[allira-dream.livejournal.com]

Thank you very much! Sadly, I tend to fall for the minor characters hard, which means that most of the things I'd like to see in Tsubasa won't ever be done if I don't write them myself or get a friend to do so: Yasha and Ashura fall in that category.

I'm very glad you liked it, thanks!

[allira-dream.livejournal.com]

I so love them. I've been working on a longer fic of them, I'm just trying to decide where it's going.

Thank you!

[ldydragon7.livejournal.com]

Oh wow. SO beautiful and sad and tragic. That line in the manga where Ashura-ou said he knew Yasha-ou was just an illsion but still could not let him go really hit me and you captured that in this fic very very well.

One of the greatest things about fan fiction is the chance to explore whats going on with all the minor characters.